falling in again....

Frick....
He literally is amazing,
And he does it every time...
I think I still have feelings for him...
But then Again I can't.
It isnt okay.
My internal organs were threatened if I dated him again.
And there is someone else....
But he cares again...
wasnt that my 11/11/11 11:11 wish?...



I have found the roads that diverge,
The one less traveled is what Mr. Frost proposes.
But what do I do if I can't tell which is traveled,
Which is not.
Tell me what to do.
Tell me if these paths converge....

Heart of hearts

My heart hurts....not in the  same way was my broken liver...
But it still hurts none the less.
I refuse to show emotion until after you are gone.
Me, of all people, getting upset and shit might just make this whole process worse on you love.
Then there is the other one...
He is always on my mind.
This is terrible. Tragic even.
I can't handle these two things at once.
I want her to stay so badly...she is literally one of my closest friends...
And I just want him to care about me again....
But neither one of these things will happen...
And my heart will just keep hurting....

Condradiction....

I walk and talk.
I swing I dance.
My smile never gives away chance.
I look so happy.
That's what you want me to be.
It's a show,
An act.
I jsut don't want you to see.
The giant contradiction,
That is me.

The future, Tom-folery, and life

I have been thinking a lot.
About my future.

There is no way that I will ever be normal. It is over rated.
So is the real world.
I am going to touch peoples lives.
Not sure how. But I will.

Being a child of a divorce I know that marriage doesnt always last forever.
I will not get a divorce.
When I marry my future husband I want to turn gray with him.
I will stay with him and never leave.

I also have decided that I will never be with a "normal" guy.
With my luck we will meet some crazy way.
Have a story.
Have real love.

I just have to

Wait.