whelp

real relationships are overrated...
what ever this thing i have going on is okay by me.
i might never get real relationships right
i mess them up and im never good or pretty enough for him.
so whatever this is,
its okay for now.
I'll settle down when its
"time"....

immature post =]

the tv said "tv  MA and mature audiences only."
giggle giggle.
definately does NOT describe that people who would watch it or me =]
This is the girl who didnt want to post a new blog cause it would mean i didnt get to see "69 posts"
=]
"He's so gay he poops skittles." bahaha. i love comedy central at 2:31 in the morning.

my words....

Call it sad,
Depressing if you will.
You pretend these are words to kill.
Alas, you wont see,
What these things could be.
Don't read it at the top,
Look a little deeper,
Spare a little thought.
I write to express.
Not to have a reader depress.

It happened again...
He told me he was still in love with her...
I was destroyed.
again.
I dont think i could take this again

Are you okay?

You ask me often,
And the answer is the same,
I'm fine, I'll make it,
It's no big deal.
I push aside my pain and the emotions that I feel.
I tell myself to grow up,
Not to throw up.
I don't want to fake it.
Just live until tomorrow.
He hurt me so bad,
Threw me into another time of sorrow.
Fast and hard is how I fall...
Is it to much to ask for his all?
Another name onto the list,
of men whom I've barely kissed.
I am more shattered than what you found...
For to my heart and long lost love
I'm forever bound...