Words that I'll never say...

There is a secret
Hiding in my soul.
There is something,
That very few will know.
No one can know,
If they do that means its real.
If they do then they will have to know what I feel.

The rain

And the rain will crash without a sound,
The noises of a young girl drowned.
Her eyes are empty,
No soul, life or light.
Her eyes are dry,
No more can she cry.
She looks up to see,
The clouds cry in her stead,
Her emotions and life never feed.
She can go on just one more day,
And promise the lie,
That she is okay......

Hello dearest d-bag.

hi trevycakes.
Every word you said to me was a lie.
Go you!
You officially or just like 90% of everyone else in my life.
So you don;t matter anymore. =]
And ps. You totally deserve her.
She plays the same games as you.
Enjoy your own medicine prick. =]
Love, Kate

Insane =]

But it is when we are in the very grips of insanity, when nothing and everything is flying around in our heads. When we are disillusioned, messed up, and at the deepest depths of the insane...
That finally, our world, our lives, our dreams, hopes, fears, and words...
They are clear.
It all makes perfect sense.
But only at the deepest of insanities...

Someday

One day you'll read my words,
They'll be burnt inside your head.
You will know they aren't for you.
That to me you now are dead.
I've gone on with this life,
Though it hurts,
It isn't right.
But when I'm lost inside my thoughts,
When I'm alone at midnight,
Nothing of you I'll know,
Nothing of your liar's show.

One day

Gee, I hope that one day I can look and act like a nasty crack whore Just. Like. You.
Angry? whose angry...not me..

Games...the good kind

Literally we have just spent the last hour talking about video games.
Like when the new Zelda game comes out(one month and one day exactly)
We went to science camp together.
You have literally the best personality ever.
Why can't you live closer to me?
We could be such better friends than we are...

Drowning

I feel like I am drowning...
I remember this all to well..
I just broke the cycle...
But it was so easy..
It would be all to easy...
To fall into it again...
Sometimes I want to..
Would you think worse of me if I did?...
Cause right now....it seems like that is all that could help....

Run

There are times I want to freak out.
I want to run away.
As far and as fast as my legs will go.
That's how I used to deal.
How I made it so I didn't have to feel.
I want to just disapear.
Then you will be filled with fear.
You would know it was your fault.
That you were to blame.
Then again you don't deserve that fame.
You ripped me and tore.
You will never know the pain I bore.
I never want to speak, touch, or feel again.
I just wanna run..freak out..
Break away, leave, and never ever come back.

new flippin record

I was home two days.
TWO FLIPPIN DAYS.
And I get in three huge fights with my mother...
and fight with him..
Thiss time it was bad...it ripped me up and killed me on the inside.
Now he is out of my phone, off my facebook friends, and out of my life.
I realy really hate this place.
With a passion.

Facebook

My status was an "I hate myself I'm never good enough" sort of thing...
You wrote what I needed.
You said I was good enough for you.
If only you knew how much that meant to me....

A good ole' country song. =]

I kinda wish that life could be like a country song.
You know that Miranda Lambert song? "Only prettier"?  I kinda wish it could be like that.
If someone is a jerk just say "Well bless your little heart.."
Or that Toby Keith song? "Bullets in the Gun"?
Where life's like "wild horses when they run"?
Well anyways. That would be great wouldn't it?
Simple, dirty, down home, and good.
That would be awesome.