Phone call =]

wow, i used to be one of them. =]
I led that life style.
He called and asked if i was home and if i wanted to hang out.
He was messed up i think.
And hearing it i laugh.
I used to be a part of that world.
But now I am out.
I have God.
I'm good bro. =]

An island.

It often seems,

Like I'm out in the middle of a sea.

There are none around,

It is just me.

You have all promised you would not lie,

None of you would make me cry.

I'm not sure you understand.

To me a promise is binding.

It is sealing.

Do you know the girl with whom your dealing?

I have spent years lied and used.

I am honest that is true.

That is all i expect from all of you.

This idea and fear has put me on an island.

It has often been only me,

Out here alone in the sea.

God is here, 

that is true.

He doesn't lie or cheat or use.

But I find it hard to trust all of you...

And I am not sure what to do...

I pray to God that I find it out... 

And can finally get off this island of perpetual doubt...

drowning...

There are assignments in the air,
Almost more than I can bare.
You are acting like that again...
And it sure ain't helpin my friend.
I am a swimmer in the water..
Not in an over dramatic slaughter.
I am tired of dealing with this crap.
You've gone back to her.
Ignored me in vain.
With all the work I need to do..
The last thing I want to care about is you.
I have more work than could ever be..
So dear friend let let go of me...

a wish....

Its not what its cracked up to be...
That life you wanna see...
It starts out only as once..
Then you get enthralled...
It starts as fast and fun...
Then you just want to be done.
There is nothing new,
Day to day.
People are all the same and never what they say.
I want you to see.
It isn't as cool as they say.
Its lonely and hollow.
Nothing happens no matter how many drinks you swallow.
I love you.
I want to protect you.
I lost my innocence...
I want you to keep yours.
Nobody who meets you can forget you.
You have helped so many.
You have helped me to see.
Now refuse to let you be me.
I know you are frustrated and confused.
And you simply want to prove.
But let God seal your heart.
Don't play this part.
Understand that how you are is amazing.
People like you are rare.
You are good and you care.
Don't let that get wrecked.
Please.
This is to ask you.
Nay, beg.
Please.
I love you and don't lose yourself...
Please.

Irony?

I thank God for my roommate.
She has a Valentine,
but she, like me doesn't enjoy the "holiday"

Before you call me cynical,
I never have.
Even when I had a Valentine.
It is silly and very capitalistic.
As a girl who tries to live outside of consumerisms....
I don't completely enjoy it.

But im neither depressed or upset...
Simple passive.
The cute couples don't bother me.
And being alone doesn't bother me either.

It's okay, and someday I'll have a man who understands that I don't need a holiday to know he loves me. =]

This never ending...

You have me convinced,
A feat I can't even do.
I hope you to hate me,
I hope to hate you.
You've got me hooked,
Lined and sunk,
I don't want to trust you,
But I want nothing more.
Looking into a human sea...
There is one face that come into focus clearly.
My eyes and heart
They are like a lense.
They see you...
And my heart breaks and mends.

One of THOSE days...

It isn't a bad day....
Its great...
Its random,
and fun,
and the PERFECT day to wear a strange sweater =]

And that children is why you never, ever, ever let the zebras out of their confinements.  =]

A Circle...

We spin around,
Blur the ground.
Take a picture,
Take a memory.
And  then it will go away.
Growing closer to tomorrow,
I'm done with histories sorrow.
Then sun will rise,
And then my life's surprise. =]

Well here we are again. =]

I haven't been in these parts for a while....
Life updates?
I have been crushed.
literally.
Like put into a blender on puree.
I have applied for a new summer camp job...
I have found new inspirations for my writing...
and I have found out that...
I can weather any storm...