Rain

Stinging in my eyes,
all your condescending lies.
I know that you aren't honest,
I know that you aren't generous.
You left me behind.
A shadow of a line.
You'll never know the pain,
of watching everything turn gray.
To know that your attempts were in vain,
To see the sky give way,
the the stinging rain.

Ghosts come back

We went separate ways.
You left me in a haze.
You were older, wiser,
more.
You told me you respected me more,
More than any other woman.
I had thoughts,
A brain.
Compassion.
You told me news and my face became ashen.
She was like all the others.
You could use her and toss her aside.
But you wanted to be with her,
Not me....

~two years later~
A message.
Simple.
Short.
Sweet.
You notify me that you will be visiting.
Not your closest bros.
Not her.
But me...
How can I confront you.
And me.
No buffers.

Not possible

Hey I just met you,
And this is crazy,
But your super cool.
And don't stop messaging me okay? =]

Possible professional?

So, I might have gotten a wedding gig. Ya, know, to take pictures of. <3
Things seem to fall completely apart before getting 200x better.
Well, this sunburnt and over exhausted body should sleep.
Text me if you want life updates!

The doors are locked,
On the closet where I keep my ghosts.
There are more than there where,
Ever since you and her.
The locks are bigger now,
I can live without.
Things are coming together.
I know without a doubt. =]

Lies.

You lies. ALL of you. The only words that you never said were the ones I needed. This shouldn't have gone on for weeks without me knowing. That is called betrayal. It's a mean thing. I can't believe you people. You are the ones I considered my "best friends" full and complete trust. Well. You are black listed. From 90 miles away the lies STILL HURT! the funnier thing is that the ONLY reason either one of you said ANYTHING was because the two of you go into a fight and wanted to get to me before the other one did, so that YOU looked like the noble one. Well, get off it. I'm the only one here that is hurting.

books of faces

Scrolling through pages,
Looking into lives
I remember where I have been
and before me what lies.
I know my own past,
Sad that it had to end.
But remember now,
You can never be my friend.

Words. Are everywhere

Ups and downs,
Are all around,
Addictive personalities,
Educating faculties.
Words spin in my head,
Never find an end.
I want to stand above,
To just spread.
The peace, joy and love.

I, yup, I have no clue

In piety I spoke,
In anxiety I act.
Through words and love,
My plan I enact.
To keep you raised up.
In my heart,
On my tongue.
I want to keep you,
In my mind, eyes, path
Stay with me forever.
May I beg or plead?

something thrown together ages ago

Between a rock and a hard place,
glory can be found,
 I've spent days waiting for you to look around.
To catch my eye, to hold my stare,
 and just once more ,
run fingers in my hair.
I try to stay calm,
not crack under pressure.
But with you next to her,
i feel regrets i no longer measure.
I want to fight on in this war,
To win your affection.
Curious if my heart will heal from your infection.

It's a stage

I'm not what You think I am,
A swirling rainbow of love and life,
Looking into my eyes you can tell.
The tears slowly begin to well.
I dance around, appear so free.
But there are shackles you can't see.
I try my best,
just as hard as I can.
To act out the part,
The role you think i am.

Stressful disstress

Groceries, candles, glitter glue.
Thinking of me and you.
Certain uncertainties pounding in my chest.
Frustration and doubts my eyelids will never see
Pounding resounding all inside my head.
My mind is shot,
My nerves have frayed.
My usual calm dismayed.
Three more days and it will all be done.
Three more days until the storm's calm.
I can make these three more days..
I just hope my spirit feels the same.

lists

I keep a list.
Of pros and cons.
Locked in my heart, way down deep.
The cons go on an on.
Tell me to stop and quit.
The pros has one word.
You.
The pros always seem to out way the cons.
<3